Sunday, January 14, 2018

Life Messenger • Part I • Returning

Returning

17 years ago, in the ever-busy Shanghai airport.


A little eight years old boy was holding a small suitcase flabbily. ShengJi was terrorised at the thought of going on this journey. The tall glass walls of the airport felt like a cage, or maybe an aquarium, filled in with an overwhelming amount of rushed people. “This is not where little boys are supposed to be. This is not fair,” he thought to himself.

Fu, why must I leave?” he asked, his eyes fixated on his father’s impressive silhouette. A man, rather tall in comparison to his comrades, with a soft, yet dark, look in his eyes, was standing beside him, peeking furtively at his watch hidden under his traditionally white doctor uniform.

“You have no choice,” he answered sharply. “Your mother needs you.” A slight sound in his voice might have given away his concern, but ShengJi was too little to understand such emotional cues. All he could see was his father’s usual proud and stoic face. The same he had when terrible news needed to be transmitted to his patients. The boy mumbled to himself, knowing his father would not listen: “But… I wanted to stay with you...” He took his hand away from his father’s and squeezed it in a fist, battling for his green eyes to stop filling up with tears.

A few days ago, a letter from Japan had announced that their mother was gravely ill. She requested that her dear husband and lovely child return to her, as she missed them terribly. She had always had a weak physique, defective organs and low immune system. ShengJi was expected to go as soon as possible, whereas his father, who was giving an important speech that month, could not leave right away. By the age of 30, the young woman was in bed fulltime, waiting for time to go by. Her teenage daughter, Shizuka, requested to stay by her side when her father had to transfer hospitals. He had studied medicine at the University of Shanghai and was highly esteemed by his peers in the medical community. At the request of his doctorate professors, he had returned to his hometown to share his researching skills and experience. This decision had, of course, divided the family in two halves, boys to China, while girls stayed in Japan, the motherland of his wife, Nadeshiko. Before her health issues had taken over most of her life, Nadeshiko was studying to become a nurse; when she met Dr. Sōshin on during his Japan seminar and heard him speak, she just knew he was special.

However, this time Nadeshiko’s illness was more problematic and she had been given a delay on life. Of course, little ShengJi knew nothing of the terminal nature of her mother’s health issue, which kept him in the dark as to why it was so important for him to return to her so quickly. He hated being away from his dad and he hated being alone on a plane even more.

An odd taste seemed to linger in his mouth, so the boy tried to swallow, but nothing changed. He could not tell how deeply afraid he was. The bell rang resonating through the airport corridor like a screech in a cave. He gave one last look to his father before he was softly pushed on his back. “Go on, son.” The flight attendant verified the card around his neck, picked up his luggage with her other hand, and called kindly to him: “Mister ShengJi? Nice to meet you. I will help you get on the plane. Follow me, would you?” She stretched her hand, covered by a light grey fabric, matching perfectly with her whole set. ShengJi gave her his hand. With a last look behind as he was walking down the gateway, he saw the back of his father’s white coat vanishing through the crowd.

Jiliade • January 14, 2018

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